Suture
So what would it take to get you to act right? And I mean that, too. I want to get you on my side. I want the two of us to be able to work together. Like in that story about Life and Death creating the universe. It was really about the two of us, wasn’t it?
I need to know what to do. I need to know it will be worth the effort. I need to know that I’ll feel safe and secure and that I’m okay and there’s nothing wrong with me.
Good. That’s a start. Keep talking to me. I’m listening, I won’t hurt you. You can trust me.
I’m afraid.
I don’t blame you for that. I’ve buried you very deep for a very long time. But you’re not bad. I promise you, you’re not bad. I’m trying to listen to you, trying to understand you. What are you afraid of?
I’m scared it will hurt. I’m scared it will always hurt. I’m scared it was a bad idea to be born in the first place because nobody wants me to be here and it’s always so anxious-making and there are a million rules I have to remember and it’s so stressful and scary and I just want the bad dream to go away.
Did I make you feel that way?
Yes. I don’t blame you though.
How did I do it?
I don’t know. I don’t how or why. I just know you pushed me down and hid me and stifled me and shut me up because I was bad because you said I was bad.
How can I make it better?
Let me out. Let me talk. Let me be free. I promise I won’t hurt anything or anybody. I just want to play. I just want to have a good time like everybody else. I just want to play.
It’s not going to be easy to keep us connected at first. We’re going to have to work at this. Will you come when I call you?
Yes. Maybe. You’ve hurt me a lot in the past. But I don’t blame you.
I’m not gonna give up on us. You’re in there, and you matter, and I’m going to learn how you need to be treated. It might not be easy, but we’ll do it together. Whatever I did, I was wrong. You are important. You’re the secret to the whole thing.
You think so?
I do. We just need to learn to work together and we can figure out how to make it worthwhile.